The day I started talking to myself
This was the day when my loneliness was almost suffocating me. My loneliness had been with me, as a constant companion and one I really didn’t want and often railed against it. It never helped me with my depression; in fact I think it was one of the main drivers of my depression. On this particular day I started talking to me. I had done this most of my life but the conversations were always negative, self-judging, and often mean. But this day was quite different, I started talking out load, not loudly but rather quiet in fact. I was instantly aware of my own voice, it wasn’t as I normally hear it, it was soft and gentle and I was also very aware of how caring it sounded.
I started by asking myself what I wanted, Peace came the immediate answer, and I waited – no judgement came. OK how was I going to find peace? Love - came the next word in my mind. And that is where the conversation stopped – it was a short conversation.
I chose to just be with my very short first, non-judgmental, out loud conversation with myself. And now I am looking at love, self-love, and wonder why that is such a painful place to be. Where are your painful places in your head? What do they stop you from achieving? I would love to hear from you about your journey to self-love.
You can send your thoughts on your own self-love journey to me at Catherine@lifeconsulting.co.nz
This was the day when my loneliness was almost suffocating me. My loneliness had been with me, as a constant companion and one I really didn’t want and often railed against it. It never helped me with my depression; in fact I think it was one of the main drivers of my depression. On this particular day I started talking to me. I had done this most of my life but the conversations were always negative, self-judging, and often mean. But this day was quite different, I started talking out load, not loudly but rather quiet in fact. I was instantly aware of my own voice, it wasn’t as I normally hear it, it was soft and gentle and I was also very aware of how caring it sounded.
I started by asking myself what I wanted, Peace came the immediate answer, and I waited – no judgement came. OK how was I going to find peace? Love - came the next word in my mind. And that is where the conversation stopped – it was a short conversation.
I chose to just be with my very short first, non-judgmental, out loud conversation with myself. And now I am looking at love, self-love, and wonder why that is such a painful place to be. Where are your painful places in your head? What do they stop you from achieving? I would love to hear from you about your journey to self-love.
You can send your thoughts on your own self-love journey to me at Catherine@lifeconsulting.co.nz
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